I don’t feel like studying for my message.
I don’t want to do my quiet time.
I don’t want to hang out with students.
I don’t want to pray.
I don’t feel like seeking the Lord.
I do want to sleep.
I do want to go home.
I do want to have a “normal” job.
I am overwhelmed.
I don’t know if im truly making a difference in students lives.
All of the things above I have uttered in my mind or even out loud. Let’s just be honest, you probably have to. There are times in which I feel like I am in a dry spell and I have no desire to seek after God, read, study for a message, counsel a student, or pray. But I always WANT to want to do those things, even though I don’t feel like it.
You know what I am talking about?
I want to want to pray.
I want to want to study.
I want to want counsel another student.
I want to want to have a quiet time.
So I have to remind myself, it’s okay. Tell God how you are feeling. Ask Him to make you WANT to do those things and out of obedience to Him keep doing them… and I am telling you, your heart will begin to break out of whatever dry spell you are in.
Out of obedience of doing for God comes a passion that overflows from Him for what you have been called to do.
Recently I have been praying this simple prayer and listening to this David Crowder song from Passion 2013. It’s simple, but it has been helping me get through the dry spell I am in through obedience to who God is. The song simply says, “Here’s my heart Lord. Speak what is true.” I listen to it when I have been in my office over and over making it a prayer.
“God. I don’t feel like doing anything. But I want to do those things. I am going to pray (read, study, etc) out of obedience to you, but I pray you help me WANT to do those things so I can do what you have called me to do with a passion. Here’s my heart, Lord. Speak what is true.”
Some of us need to pray this right now. Make this your prayer and listen to this song and make it an anthem for this week.