///True Confessions: I Want To Be Famous

True Confessions: I Want To Be Famous

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I am not sure how to admit this. It has been nagging at the back of my head (and heart) for a really long time. It’s a conversation I had with my intern just yesterday. I read certain books challenging me in my walk with Christ and I push it down for a little while and pretend it isn’t there. However, if it goes unchecked I deal with the temptation once again.

If I am totally honest I would love to be famous. Alright, maybe not REALLY famous like paparazzi in my face all the time, but at least noticed. Perhaps, not totally noticed, but it would be great to feel important… or heard… or something.

It doesn’t help that we live in a culture that is pushing me to grab my fifteen minutes of fame. It can be as simple as uploading the correct “youtube” video or picture that goes “viral.” If I am witty enough, people might like what I have to say. On a couple of occasions I have been blessed to talk to different “book” agents and fill out proposals for writing. I have also been told to grow my “following” on blogs, twitter, and Facebook if I want to be “noticed.” Leadership books fuel my fire with great insights into growing my “platform” or “being heard.” “Get out there and take your fame!” is what rings in my ears.

In my heart I would love to be invited to be on main stage somewhere to speak. It flies in the face of the Gospel that tells me to “decrease” so He can “increase,” or that I should “die to myself,” so Christ can be evident in me. I can over spiritualize it and say that I want to do it to bring glory to the Lord. However, the problem with this particular scenario is that God’s glory is not contingent on whether or not I announce it.

Yet, here is the irony in my desire for a “voice.” What I look at the people I admire, it isn’t their “fame” that impresses me. Some of them are not even considered “famous” in the eyes of most, they are people in love with Jesus who have been faithful and obedient to Christ. It is humility, perseverance and a desire to be so in love with the Lord they want to be solely HIS that brings me admiration.

A friend said this to me recently: “My thinking has been that there are too many people with platforms who have nothing to actually say. We should pray for something to say, and if God wants to have a platform, great. But just CREATE, and write, and make things, because you’re wired to do it. If a platform happens, awesome.”

The conundrum of course is if this post never gets read I have to ask myself if I am ok with that. Am I telling you about my fame “stuff” so you will follow me on a social network? Have I put a sentence in bold or thought in terms of character spaces so you can tweet my words? If I do someday have a chance to speak to a large audience will you accuse me of needing to be in the spotlight?

I do love to write and speak because I want to resource others. I want to help. Yet, I have to keep this other thing in constant check. It has to be sacrificed on the alter, chopped to bits and consumed by fire from heaven… daily. In what I am doing I have to ask, “If there is one person in the room will I be alright with that? Do I really believe that is important to God?”

More importantly I need to ask who is my true audience? Can I walk into each room as if it is “just” Jesus sitting there?

Can I believe it’s my life with Jesus that is most impactful? The other day I had a conversation with someone telling me how my family had influenced them. It wasn’t from a main stage. It wasn’t in a blog post. It wasn’t in a published piece. It was just being a normal husband, wife and kids on adventure with the Lord.

So I can’t say I will stop creating. I am wired to do those things. I will also not use the hashtag “humble” anytime soon to prove how I have conquered my “fame” issue. I think I will just keep getting closer to the Lord and see how that goes.

What about you?

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About the Author:

Leneita Fix is the Mission’s Coordinator for Urban Youth Impact and the co- creator and director of the “Own It” Initiative at Berean Christian School in West Palm Beach, Florida. One of her greatest joys is serving in ministry as a family with her husband, John, and four amazing children. Since all of her children are in their teen and young adult years she mocks often that she actually “lives with a youth group.” This has given her a passion to walk alongside other parents of teens, those who work with teens & teens themselves empowering everyday families to navigate the beautiful chaos of the everyday. Her career has been spent in camps, urban, suburban and rural family based ministry primarily in New Jersey, Virginia, and Florida. Her responsibilities have included Bible based program and ministry direction for children ages 5-18, curriculum writing, leadership training, recruiting, discipleship, resource creation and speaking to national audiences. She has authored several books for those who work with teens in a variety of landscapes her most recent being a book that helps parents of tweens and teens connect with their kids called, "The Beautiful Chaos of Parenting Teens: Navigating the Hardest Years You Will Ever Love”.

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