I’ve been in a busy “season” since August and it doesn’t let up until December. It got me thinking, “Am I just busy, or is there something deeper than pace of life? Could it be that I’m driven by fear?”
There’s no one to blame for my busyness but myself. I made the choices. I said, “yes” to speaking engagements, writing projects, people-commitments, church-launching… months ago.
I’m currently able to pay my bills, but these deposits are coming with a cost.
I’m approaching 50 years old and I’m still learning that my daily choices matter. Sad.
What if the real truth behind my busyness (and maybe yours) is FEAR?
- Fear that I can’t provide for my family. How will Cathy/kids respond if we can’t pay our bills?
- Fear that people will stop asking me to teach/speak/write/collaborate. Is my identity so closely connected to work/job/production? Am I afraid of not being needed?
- Or, is it fear of a underlying feeling that what if all the stuff I’m trying to “do” doesn’t really matter?
Lately, I’ve been thinking of the words of Jesus, “My dear Martha… you are worried and upset over all these details… There is only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it…” (see Luke 10:38-42)
Everyday you and I have a choice: to boldly enter into the distractions of our growing to-do lists for fear that we won’t get it all done… or, to quietly sit at the feet of Jesus and listen to what he taught.
There is only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it….”
Question: What’s a fear that is currently resting in your soul? Willing to share?